babe can i show you my d*ck
Nothing I expected but everything I wanted
I am sitting in the glass house
counting my chewed rings
and thinking about the person I was
before I knew you.
A girl who sipped dark beer
and kept her mouth pale pink like a hushed petal.
A girl who always wore deodorant
Said her “please”s and “thank you”s
Came home on time
or sometimes sat in a parked car
down the block from her mother’s open window
laughing and letting herself be touched.
A very timid thing who floated down halls
and did not eat because she feared
being called an intruder in her own home.
I think of her and I get bored
and the people I have
tried to be.
I bite the inside of my cheek
a little blood pours out,
and I taste her in it.
I am thankful for the person I fooled
others into thinking I was.
Thankful that these words are just
different spellings of her name.
Thankful that living with her
brought me to